think of me.

The rain streaks down the window

I want to tell you but you already know

The thunder cracks, the lightning lights

I’m so sick and tired of all these fights

Outside it’s foggy, the inside is too

But I know no one could ever replace you

Nothing else is clear, not sure where I’m going

But I can’t go without knowing

Do you still care? Do you still need me?

No you don’t, so why can’t I see?

Why do I care? Why do I need your acceptance?

Why can’t I lean on my own independence?

Oh that’s right, you made me this way

You gave me no choice, I have nothing to say

As my self esteem dropped you turned

Left me alone, my mind to be burned

Can’t take it, with or without you

It hurts to think but I know it’s true

The latter I’ll have to take, but you chose it

So don’t give me anymore of this bullshit

When you’re hurt and lonely

Don’t you dare think of me

You did this, you ran away

And it’ll never ever be okay.

sinking in.

Sinking In

It happened a day ago

feels like a year

you got up and left

me alone standing here

It’s still sinking in

and the hardest part

is knowing you won’t come after me

won’t rescue my heart

Thought I’d be glad

when you disappeared

but now I’m not sure

the pain is worse than I feared

I cry the night away

not knowing why

confused about how

I was forced to say goodbye

There’s no turning back

I know you’re gone for good

but would I change anything

if I really could

The hurt is equal

both of the ways

putting up with you

or being alone through the days

I try by myself

but before I begin

I turn to look for you

‘cuz it’s still sinking in.

routine.

Routine-

Same thing everyday

it’s one of those routines

wake up, find a way

to uncover what life means.

End the day, make it fast

get through it all alone

we all know that nothing lasts

every problem becomes your own.

Sit in the corner, cry it out

while holding yourself together

don’t tell no one what it’s about

‘cause you know they won’t stay forever.

Stand up, crawl in bed

struggle through the pain

forget what they all said

they left you in the rain.

Say goodbye to everyone

you’re leaving them behind

promise them that you’re done

date at the top and sign.

Walk away and don’t look back

they never cared at all

now company is what you lack

no one will catch you when you fall.

distance.

distance.

the feeling of not being close. the feeling that things around you have gotten so bad that even the ones who once were so close to you can no longer understand. the feeling that youre alone.

I look into the distance

Not knowing what I’ll find

It’s been awhile since things’ve made sense

And I can’t make up my mind

I feel so alone, waiting for things to change

I wait and wait and wait

For things to rearrange

But maybe it’s too late

Too late to change the past

I need to change what’s now

‘Cause forever doesn’t last

And it’s not worth my vow

I need to get away from here

Away from all the pain

Things’ll only get worse I fear

So tell me, why do I remain?

I want to run away

From you and all your shit

I’ve got nothing to say

To you and that I’ll admit

So many things you’ve done

You didn’t even realize

So I need to leave, to run

Before more tears fall from these eyes

It’s getting worse and worse

This is exactly what I need

And I’m leaving now, it’s a first

But my absence you won’t heed

That’s okay, I’ll be alright
As soon as you’re finally, out of my sight.


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